So I’ve started estrogen around 3 weeks ago (hooray (ヮ)/ ) but have noticed one thing that is really bothering me.
I feel like I could eat the entire day through. I’m just constantly hungry and it really irks me… Before, I had absolutely no issues going with one, maybe two small meals a day (when not at work) and sometimes even completely skipping a day. But now I pretty much need a chewing gum to sedate me from eating all the food that I made for myself for today and tomorrow.
It’s really tearing on me… Yes, I am slightly underweight (56kg/173cm) but the fact that I am a little slim is like 30% of what makes me pass even just on 3 weeks of HRT…
I don’t want to gain weight, I don’t want to lose this figure of mine, I don’t want to waste so much time and money just eating…
I know that this is probably partially an undiagnosed eating disorder speaking but does any one of you have a similar experience?
The fat i’d accumulate wouldn’t go to my ass or boobs… I have no chance of getting much of either sadly so it would just collect as undesirable belly padding…
Cis woman here, married to a trans woman, so I’m familiar with both sides of this puberty: it’s okay to eat a little more. You’re basically a teenager, and your body needs energy now. You are going to go through a fair bit of change and it’s important to have the calories needed to do so, especially if you’re starting out without much fat in reserve. Your body is going to redistribute where fat accumulates on your body, and people with estrogen tend to have a higher body fat percentage than people with testosterone.
If you have a therapist (gender therapist or otherwise) I’d definitely consult with them about your anxiety around this, since you mentioned the possibility of disordered eating. If it helps, talking to your regular doctor or endocrinologist can give you other professional perspectives on this as well.
Good luck! And take care of yourself ♥
Thank you <3 I’ll bring it up in my next therapy session. Probably a good idea