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Chill out Louis.

Having to carry every BLOPS game between two people while everyone else was average or worse. Every night for like 2 years lol.

For those using Imagus, make sure to click the link still. The entire comic doesn’t get blown up from the thumbnail.

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Thanks for the info! Appreciated. Thought I’d mention it since it may have been a weird host/Kbin issue.

What’s with all the rpgmemes links from you Yora that have mismatched thumbnails?

There is no meaning. We make are own meaning arbitrarily. That’s what it means to be human, ND or not.

Work on your CBT, work on medication if needed, go through the day working on little wins, they add up to big ones without even realizing it.

Also make sure you sleep right. People harp on eating and working out but I found a great spot with a good medicine regimen which also helped me start and end the days right. Adderall XR 30mg, Clonidine, and Nortryptyline ftw. The Naltrexone helped a ton with cutting down on the alcohol self medication.

Feeling little guilts constantly is the default for a lot of people, I’d wager more people than not. It’s how we prime our brains to do the things we don’t want to do. Most NT people just don’t have as big an issue with it. It’s comforting knowing almost everyone has that issue but still get along in their days relatively fine. It puts me at ease knowing everyone else is in their own little world too. Even the people closest to me.

The reason why I have ten alarms set every workday lol.

I really wish Google Calendar allowed you to change your default notification from 10 min though. Who the fuck can get anywhere or do anything in 10 min?

My default would need to be 1 day, 1 hour. Workdays 1 hour, and a 10 min.

It also needs to alarm instead of message tone. Would be nice.

Toilet paper shit is the little tp piles it leaves around your ass when you wipe and it’s still a little wet down there.

For those with bidets like myself: Cottonelle is where it’s at. No TP shit.

Well then call me vegetarian because I’m about to eat her up.

Please be Prozd please be Prozd please be Prozd… Yes!

Honestly that 80/90s scare did a doozy on most GenX/Millenial underlying mentals on how they treat or medicate. Medicine is literally medicine. Not a crutch, not something to be scared of. If you’re not scared of the literal food you eat or the water you drink, then you shouldn’t for meds either. It’s a necessary thing for us mostly because of scumbag genetics and probably some environmental conditions. I do hope you’re actually happy with either route you take.

Yeah I’d still say I’m fairly stoic/quiet, but I at least have all my emotions now. I’m confident I used stoicism as a counter for the ADHD as a crutch for focusing. Unfortunately it was very much like going through life like the scene in Fight Club where the Narrator could barely hear his boss lol. Sure things mattered, I did stuff, but I didn’t really feel much of anything when going through the motions. I had good empathy for others, but not for myself. I just didn’t care about shit. However, I was never suicidal and never will be probably. Too scared of death and FOMO.

These days? Have a toddler, another on the way sooner than later. I leak all the time watching shit lol.

I’ve heard a good analogy before that so many of our emotions are like a filled glass of water. Someone with depression like mine always had the glass half full so unless some CRAZY amounts of stuff happened, the glass would never overflow. Others, it’s ALWAYS about to spill over. For most healthy people, it’s filled, but there’s still space at the top. Sad stuff should be able to make you sad and poignant things cry. Mad things shouldn’t let you be a dormat forever, but they shouldn’t instantly make you pop either. That glass has felt APPROPRIATELY full after meds.

FWIW it mostly depends on if you have anything else going on behind the scenes besides the ADHD.

The biggest thing you can do is be completely honest with your GP and get a referral to a psychiatrist. I’ve always had great actual coping mechanisms for when shit really hits the fan. CBT was something I had already looked into myself and worked on. I’ve always been the person to have my life and shit together, but it took waaaay more effort than anyone realized since I mask -relatively- easily.

It was pretty much immediately start medicine and go from there. Yeah, the antidepressants (SNRI/SSRIs) sucked ass and I’m no longer on 1st lines which is honestly the biggest issue people have with meds. I actually asked for Ritalin first since I heard about Adderall abuse, but Adderall >>>> Ritalin.

I’ve pretty much always known I had it, my mom said teachers and my school said I had it, she refused to medicate anyway due to the 80/90s OVERMEDICATING CHILDREN hysteria. Wonders why I always had issues finishing stuff that wasn’t games. Oh hey, executive dysfunction is a thing!

Got diagnosed as an adult @ ~30. Took about 2 years to get a decent medicine regiment since we were also treating some panic disorder due to being a functional alcoholic too. Mild-Moderate depression mostly manifesting in numb/stoicism with some GAD. FWIW Naltrexone OP for the booze. It’s cut my habit down by an extra $100/mo.

No joke though, amphetamines are like day and night for me. Similar to Leilys above, the tiredness I used to feel from morning to night basically vanishes. While I do take ~6 pills, the only real ones I take for ADHD is a pretty high dose of Adderall or Vyvanse (generic please hurry the fuck up) and Clonidine for fidgeting and offlabel to help sleep. A huge part of the high dose was due to the alcoholism and a regular cocaine habit so I process it pretty quickly compared to most lol. Oh yeah, Naltrexone helped for that too. Haven’t had white in like a year?

It only took me $1,500 in out of pocket despite having insurance for them to start helping with meds since Vyvanse is the only shit you can get with any sort of regularity. Adderall XR is essentially impossible. I have to get a script for both regularly in case they can’t fill one. Thankfully all last year it was relatively easy to get Adderall still, this year it’s been impossible since February. I think I filled my bottle twice? lol

… this is me with excel files for random bookkeeping shit lol. Everyone’s are so ugly… but I’m making these look nice for all of like… 3 different people that use them lol. So at least when I have to do these random tasks twice a year… they look nice! Even if the old stuff worked or doing it by hand with a legal pad was sufficient… I gotta have that Excel column auto sum damn it!

ADHD is a bitch sometimes.

Kbinaut definitely rolls off the tongue better than Kbinite for me too. The latter feels a little too nasally. Then again Kbinaut sounds a little too Chuuni like it’s taking taking itself toonseriously… I definitely still like it more though.

Knites. Kbinites. Knite time is the right time…

Suck on these Knauts.

Ks are silent in both unless you say the whole thing. K-bin-night. K-bin-naught.

Nights, and naughts. Kbinutz.

There’s enough puns in both… White Knites…

Is that the official name for Kbin users? Kbinite? Does that make shitty Kbin users Binners? K silent and sorta trash can related lol.

I’ve ready so many high fantasy novels that sounded like they started off as DnD campaigns. Turns out like half of them were lol.